I can't find anything on this so I want to ask if anyone does????? [84 words]
(created by Chaoticcylinder on 2021 Aug 2 Mon 17:04:35 GMT)
So I've been looking for quite a while now on something that I think almost perfectly fits my identity (Occam's Razor and what not), but I cannot find anything about it. So I'm hoping someone can help me out if they know anything :) It's related to feeling chaos. Not masculine or feminine, just constantly changing and enveloping chaos. It's kind of like an Outer God like Nyarlethotep, constantly changing in intensity, but always there and incomprehensible to humanity. the best I can find is if you mix together Chaosgender and Cryptidgender.
Is there a gender where your depression specifically impacts it? [102 words]
(created by Chaoticcylinder on 2021 Jun 30 Wed 6:37:29 GMT)
So I have Major Depressive Disorder and Persistent Depressive Disorder, and it greatly impacts me throughout my daily life. I know my gender (Mosaic or Trans-Mosaic), but it feels like a part of my identity is my depression due to just having it my whole life. It's like I go from being Mosaic to an inhuman monster every day. It's kind of like I become a creature that is desperately trying to pretend to be human when it happens. Is there a word or identity for this? If there is, I have a flag that I made to represent what I feel:
I'm stuck between names I need someone's opinion [97 words]
(created by Chaoticcylinder on 2021 May 25 Tue 4:09:31 GMT)
So I'm stuck between some names that I love that I want to use for my name. I already have my first name chosen,but the middle name(s) is where I'm stuck. My first name is Oísin, pronounced similar to 'ocean'. I just don't know what sounds more natural or flowing with my first name out of these middle names: Moss, Ilithyia, Loki, Thatch, and Fenyx. If I paired two together, I like the combos Thatch and Fenyx, Loki and Moss, and Moss and Ilithyia. But what sounds better? I need some outside opinions as they all sound nice to me.
Possible Label for my Gender (still working on it) [136 words]
(created by Chaoticcylinder on 2021 Mar 27 Sat 2:02:25 GMT)
So I think I might have a good name for my gender I am coining, as it makes sense to me! I would love some feedback though. Okay here it is: Mosaic. It's based off the actual genetic mutation called Mosaicism, which is where your body has different forms of chromosomal makeup throughout it without any issues. Think of Calico cats, they are a perfect example of mosaicism, they're chromosomes have different groups with different hair colors, and those are in patches throughout the body. Since I feel like I should have been born intersex, specifically XX/XY, and what I'm feeling is hard to describe in words,I think making my label off of the term makes sense! So for me, I'm Trans Mosaic. I also know I'm xenic, so I could shorten it to Moxenic, but I'm not sure on that.
Flag for my Gender [115 words]
(created by Chaoticcylinder on 2021 Mar 22 Mon 17:49:55 GMT)
I'm still figuring out my label, but I have been drawing this symbol for a while that really speaks to me, and I chose colors that I feel represent what I feel. I hope it looks okay! Symbol: A xenogender symbol mixed with the symbol of mercury. 4 dots that show different aspects in life- child, adult, elderly, with self being at the top and center. Colors: Black- the unknown or representing the feeling of something outside of what we know. Purple- all three represent the middle road or in between, and the various degrees or shades it can be felt. Grey- the lack of masculine or feminine, but a feeling of something still there.
Gender Identity Art [56 words]
(created by Chaoticcylinder on 2021 Mar 15 Mon 16:35:43 GMT)
I was finally able to draw out what my gender dysphoria feels like for me for my therapist! It feels like two different things separately, so I drew two different things that cannot be combined, they always are close but not together. One of them is what I desire/wish biologically, one is what I feel metaphorically.
Quick Question! [84 words]
(created by Chaoticcylinder on 2021 Mar 7 Sun 18:24:15 GMT)
So I see a gender therapist, and she said that, due to what I feel not matching any gender or label, I should pioneer and coin a gender of my own. However, after reading the links the wiki provided on how to do this, I'm still confused on how to go about doing this. I don't want to offend or weird people out, and I don't know what words to use or how to combine words to create a term. How should I go about doing this?