i have changed my mind about leaving. i suppose spending a bit of time here is nice.
names: birby (main name), celdua/cel (newer name), savior, salv, irl name, just dont call me something masculine ig
gender: female. probably. or demigirl, at the least i dont really care at this point
orientation: pansexual. i used to id as a lot of different things. i used to be on the ace spectrum so i will occasionally speak for ace people if this is ok with anyone.
amory: ambiamory (syndeamory). i am in a monogamous relationship but i am currently interested in an addition to the relationship. dunno when that will happen
pronouns: id like to be referred to by my names instead of my pronouns when referring to me in third person, if possible. fae/they is preferred if not, and if you have trouble with those, please feel free to use she/her. do not refer to me with masculine pronouns (especially he/him) please! i am having haha funny obsessive identity problem and it will probably freak me out or something! :(
mental brain salad:
- - i cannot word. like. words. words.... sometimes my wording is strange or doesnt make sense sorry
- - there are specific things that can either upset me or panic me. i will not say them because i value my privacy lol
- - i sometimes refer to this dude named "amledd" thats me. its a part of my brain that is being weird
- - i have a therapist. we havent made much progress yet but i am hoping to figure out what is wrong with me.
- - i may or may not have anxiety/depression, adhd, ocd or something my brain is not okay- thats all i know. so dont tell me i have something or dont because im not diagnosed. Do not recommend "self-diagnosis" or try to "diagnose" me. I do not trust myself with diagnosis nor do i trust other people to do it unless they are qualified mental health professionals. I am fine with ppl doing self-diagnosis (educated, mind you.) but i am not interested. Sorry.
- - i am trying to get diagnosed though! for some reason saying "i think i have (insert disorder here)" is like impossible to my therapist in my head so it will be awhile
- - i have trouble remembering triggers and stuff so if i accidently upset anyone, pls let me know... and i also sometimes use the wrong terminology, please correct me on this, i am open to improvement on my language.
i make characters and i draw a lot to cope with my environment. i draw vent art more than the average person, or at least i think i do. keep that in mind as well
besties
just gonna put my besties o'er here so i dont forget
not very close/minor friends:
my trust level can vary with these ppl and they probably dont know much about me. mains reasons probably being that they do not get outta there way to dm me. and they disappear in our conversations a lot. i dont mind either of those issues but its kinda hard to get close when you hardly talk to me privately. or i just dont get too chaotic with them lol
sometimes when we befriend each other i may instantly or not instantly categorize you as an "average trust friend". it depends on my comfort and your willingness to speak with me.
axel(2), floufe, darogan, (wip)
group talk friends:
i hardly dm them but are average trust friends, i vent to them occasionally but i am very vague. i usually talk to them either together or with others.
katie, bred, (wip),
average trust friends:
just like group friends but i actually dm them lol, or they dont do group discussion. these are just normal friends. they may or may not be permitted to see my vents, it varies, but they dont know my worse things. i might speak to them daily, but
ratsy, stink rat, pixx, iota, (wip)
close friends:
people i talk to a lot. usually show vents but they dont know everything
cin, (wip)
best friends:
they know things. i talk to them a lot
feenix, nabon system, ira, jacob, canis,
sandlot:
rukka, chi
irl friends or friends of irls:
they know personal information and have either seen me in real life, or my irl friends in real life
trust levels vary and may or may not know things
kaiju, koibee, riri, sorrel, hayden, axel (1), diya, mars, irman, fetus, cloud
significant other(s):
my partner(s). im ambiam so i can have more than 1. know just about as much as best friends combined with irl friends... ig
askata.