When you feel an overall disconnect from gender, but still use gender labels that you feel fit the best
The grey gradient is to represent the overall disconnect from gender, with the two small “gender” lines in between to show that while you use this gender label, you don’t actually connect with it
Nes- from the russian word nesmotrya, meaning despite. Can be used as nesboy, nesgirl, nesfem, or just paired with your other label, example "nesgender genderflux"