i've left im;; sorry i'm sorry it's just too much n ilysm, okie? i'll be okay. if i could give you all of the love you deserved i would, i would, i would. no matter how broken or unloveable or disgusting you find yourself, i promise you that you deserve to be loved n that you're precious nd. that you did ;; absolutely nothing wrong to deserve to feel like this. okay? you're okay.
goodbye !! <3333333333333333 *infinite, infiniteinfinite hugs*
hi! i'm a genderfae (maybe faesari? aaa why is this so confusing) lunarian and sometimes lunettian. i use she/her, ae/aer, it/its, nd nim/nam/nair, and you can call me milky! so. um. here!
names
- milky(/milkie!)
- ni (sometimes)
- spare
- astrian/astelian
- eventide
likes
- people <3
- my friends!!
- my squooshes n my fluffs ♡
- glottal stops
- the smell of books and baking bread
- rain
- music
- pianos
- strawberry tea with evaporated milk stirred into it
- warm milk foam and soft lights
- fluffy blankets
- oversized sweaters
- floofy rabbits :o
- throwing waffles
- hiding in corners
- running away
- the smell of creamy coffee
- poems that nobody knows
- poems that everybody knows
- things that sound and feel like poems
- cold drizzles and warm thunderstorms
- waiting for someone in the rain
- things out-of-place, misplaced, where they shouldn't be but they are and it looks very beautiful.
- long capey sweaters :DDD *swooSh*
- studio ghibli !!
- pockets! n putting little things in pockets, like plants or stuffed animals or tiny pet rabbits or moonstone pendants or books or food or a tiny waffle maker :,>>>
- tiny little books
- "runaway" by aurora; "ev*ryth*ng i w*nt*d" & "your power" by billie eilish
- aurora n may other!! favorite artists in general ;A;
- "a silent voice" !!
- floomfy things nd nice words !! s o pr Et Ty <33
dislikes (tw// v**l*nce, s*/f h*rm, negative emotions)
☁ also people
☁ myselfffffffffff -
☁ being forced to speak
☁ when i can't do anything to help/being useless
☁ intrusive thoughts
☁ norman (bOoO yOu, nOrman >:0)
☁ mean people :<
☁ when people hurt eachother or hurt themselves
☁ violence
☁ guilt
☁ sadness/melancholy
☁ norman again (yOu mAde tHE liSt tWicE, nOrmAn D:<<)
☁ also greg
(more soon!!)
^picking up the music player someone dropped^
☁ everything i wanted, billie eilish ☁ runaway, AURORA ☁ your power, billie eilish ☁ remember when, wallows ☁ nocturne no. 2 in e flat, opus 9, chopin ☁ merry-go-round of life, joe hisaishi ☁ talia, king princess ☁ love is a warmth not a fire, esthie ☁ her, shiloh dynasty and vowl ☁ my future, billie eilish ☁ gymnopedie 1, erik satie ☁ the name of life, joe hisaishi ☁ line without a hook, ricky montgomery ☁ up all night, khalid ☁ life goes on, bts ☁ b-tches broken hearts, billie eilish ☁ less i know the better, tame impala ☁ happiness is a butterfly, lana del rey ☁ gimme love, joji ☁ are you lost, park bird ☁ pursuit of happiness, kid cudi ☁ in my life, the beatles ☁ how to never stop being sad, dandelion hands ☁ put your head on my shoulder, paul anka ☁ mr loverman, ricky montgomery ☁ with a smile, eraserheads ☁ a cat is a cat, slide20xx ☁ imagine, shiloh dynasty & vowl ☁ invisible, dandelion hands ☁ i ain't perfect, iv of spades ☁ captivated, iv of spades ☁ earfquake, tyler the creator ☁ put your records on, corinne bailey rae & ritt momney ☁ ☁ awakening, jinsang ☁ gone, gone/thank you , tyler the creator ☁ your power, billie eilish ☁ almost (sweet music), hosier ☁ cherry, rina ☁ villain, stella jang ☁ praying, kesha ☁ transparent soul, willow ☁ outta my mind, monsune ☁ xs, rina ☁ exist for love, AURORA ☁ best part, H.E.R. ☁ damn right, audrey nuna ☁ evening wind, joe hisaishi ☁ i will wait for you to come home, kupla ☁ you n' i, rainlord ☁ lovely, billie eilish ☁ stfu, rina (good for reading infuriating things or interacting with bigoted people!!) ☁ ☁ ☁ ☁ ☁ ☁ ☁ ☁ ☁ ☁ ☁ ☁ ☁
more soon ☁
books & authors
☁ ocean vuong, "a letter to my mother that she will never read" ☁ tove jansson, "moominvalley in november" ☁ sherman alexie, "the completely true diary of a part-time indian" ☁ se hinton, "the outsiders" ☁ ernest hemingway, "the old man and the sea" ☁ tove jansson, "moominland midwinter" ☁ haruki murakami, "the elephant vanishes" ☁
(etc. more added later!)
movies/films/games/cinema/thingys that i like!!
☁ grave of the fireflies. (ghibli). it's my favorite movie, n when i first watched it i sobbed for hours afterword hysterically n didn't stop crying over it for three weeks. i'm never ever ever watching it again, but it's just an amazing n impossibly, indescribably sad film. and it's really important. please please watch it, if you aren't triggered by [w*r, st*rvation, *rph*ns, b*mbs, th**very, p*lice, v*ol*nce, *nger, d*ath, gr*ef, crying, p*in, *llness, t*xic relatives, f*mily, fr*gs and other animals, phys*cal wounds, b*rns, f*re, h*melessness, t*nks, w*rships, s*ffering, s*dness, bl*me, g*ilt, h*pelessness, m*ssed-up society, systemic ab*se, unw*ntedness, p*rents dy*ng, the sides of roads, or any similar triggers]
☁ missed messages, angela he. <3
☁
genders
- genderfae
- girlflux
- genderfluid
- multiflux!! (:000 such wOw tErm >:C)
- i'm a moonstone collector!! :DD
- enby
- lunarian
- lunettian
- juxera
- faesari
- faesariflux
- fenby
- girlby
- neutrois
- novarian
- maverique
- fingender
- agender (sometimes, n usually only partially)
- female
- aporagender
- stellarian (usually not fully!! demi-stellarian?)
- erisian
- creamic
- kenochoric
- soffgender (sdfghjkgheywujhrfg i made this mysElf *is proud ;w;*)
- sleepyleite
- soft-stormgender
- blanketgender
- softie-rainic (D: hHHh i love this too much *cryngiNg*)
- milkian
- genderfvck
- cloudgender
orientation ♡ (hhHHH such a pretty heart!! i stole it from somewhere online :D)
♡ homoflexible-platoniromantic (*cOnFusiOn* ;w;) jsdhsjdhgsiosdfbhuewuiodsiuo halp pigeons hath thefed my brAin ;W; *soft branless sOobs*
♡philoromantic browntian/lesbian/sapphic? :0 n physically, a varioriented bambi-ish lesbian!! ♡
i'm also alloromantic!! & *ahem* ♡w Ha M en♡ n ♡enbies♡ & i'm omniqp ♡
terms coined ;U; *p r i dE*
moonstone collector (<33)
mist-soupian (<3333)
sleepyleite (<33)
softie-rainic (<3333)
also i make flaGS!! ahAHEFIGUWCYUTDWisouakhnv fyDFGOULJBHVGJcfxydufyiguhli *i have so much pixelart saved n i'm r e ady* *squoomfles in happ aesthetic C:*
aesthetics
- after hours
- light academia
- pastel aesthetic
- milky aesthetic
- softie aesthetic
- mist/fog
- dreamy
- moon aesthetic
- bunnycore
- a bit of cottagecore, &
- some dark academia
fun facts
- could probably cut down a mackerel with a tree. a small tree, though :>
- biracial (se asian-white), chaotic good, infp, likes the idea of anarchism but doesn't trust human nature enough to believe in it
- needs help just in general
- really wants to be a nomad
- makes feeble life choices :D
- will start an indie band composed of three quails and myself, named "my eyebrow. those unraveling mint dragons,"
- has joined the pangolins!! >:>>>>
- b r i n g m e t h e r i c e
- i know morse :C
- infp;; numerology sign 2;; pisces rising;;
- i'm questioning whether or not i'm in a median system with a thingie/person who may also be myself?? called nyx. ; ^ ; *sOBs*
- i'm also!! poc and live in america, if you're confused! ;W;
- "squoomfling" is technically hallouween themed, because no one here knows what it means :D n anWAy since 'tis unknown;; it's scary, because "the scariest thing to the mind is the unknown". sO aM THE MONARCH OF HALLOWE'EN >:CCCCC *hiswbIFEUdhWOIEFIudw happ ;n;*
triggers n squicks D: (& other things)
[triggers] *** (in order of intensity)
-l*ly of the v*ll*y
-kn*ves with green h*ndles
-being forced medication
- sugarcrash! by elyotto
- when a lot of people are feeling a lot of negative things at once in one place
- very angry people/intense-ish anger
- intrusive thoughts
- the phrase "i understand- completely." specifically that!! i like being understood, n people telling me "i understand" ;w; but that specific phrase is just veryveryevery nu no adfdsfgdhsgshahngshsdhdsajhej
- the book lol*ta (i)
- s*lf h*rm, but very very mildly
-s*x*al things (hhhHHh im not proud of myself anymore!! it got worse ;U;)
[squicks]:
- triggers like p*ed*phili* & r*p*
- anything to do with m* (y) b*d* (o, y)
- c*nnibalism
- typing the word "i"; but also only mildly nd is vERy unavoidable
- also!! i regress, nd i try not to do it on here; but if i ever do - pronouns = nim/nam/naer & she/her, and names = buttery, ricecake, n milkie.
.. ..
^half of the time we're gone but we don't know when and we don't know where^
^dancin on the edge of the infinity ˖⁺ ☁⋆ feels like a dream ˖⁺ ☁⋆ only a dream.^
^i wanna hold you, and kiss your scars^
spirit animal
a small slice of bread. maybe even a concert pianist!
irl friends
- jerry the r̶a̶b̶b̶i̶t̶ rose
- planty the potted plant
- my thumb with a face drawn onto it
- my other fingers with faces drawn on them :DD
- email = aerimousse@gmail.com (n there's more;; i hAve sO mAnY gMaiLs hhhhhHHh *tear*)
- (note: im really sorry;; all of my gmails are out-of-use-now because they're blocked on my sch**l chromebook n my computer has been taken ;A; you can still mw me, though!! sdrFTUGYIHU i keep forgetting mws exists *more cry* il you impossibly kind n happy-feelings beings so much <333)
- (note 2! if you want to contact me, try melk.stel@gmail.com! mUhehEHehehHEhehee new mystery email >:>> (but note-inside-of-note [note-ception? :00] i also might not be on there so much because something happened on my school gmail with a classmate n long story short sort of a little bit vague trigger for i mMe n S e (undiagnosed!) so ci al a n xi e Ty s Y m P to M s hHHhhh-) )
commonly asked questions:
q: ^what's wrong with you?^
a: nothing !! (or maybe undiagnosed social anxiety n clinical/major depressive disorder. but undiagnosed!! undiagnosed )
q: ^where are you?^
a: on the moon, hopefully. probably not, though. so!! im usually in spixity's attic, in a little house with a river n ricecakes n a cat, some nice ocean traintracks or a rainy pavillion, on my mw if you need anything ever, or wandering around doing nomad things, throwing waffles, n being a nomad in general. in short, everywHere. and nowhere!! all at the same time. (but sadly i live in america near a city ;w;)
q: ^what do you want for dinner?^
a: ^hhHhhHhhh im fine with anything *sweats* ;A;^
important links
https://pronouny.xyz/u/%5Emilkie%5E
note to memoryless future self: put cj bo burnham video *here* ;; steal braincell for memory retention :D
nemesisesises
- nOrmaN >>:,CCCCCCCC
- the eleven-eleven wish people who don't have chocolate ;A;
- qu**rphobes
- dave the ghost
- norman again *cri*
- the stupid number angels who keep planting their numbers everywhere >:C *shakes fist* (not the nice angels like the one thingie shaped like a wheel with eyes, [;u;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;,,,,,,] or my fren em)
allies/frAnds (sign :D)
- pangolins!
- poets
- small raindrops
- more soon? am forgetting D:
- society of lowercase typers
- "eDnA i'M loSt D,: "
- world-take-overy people
- vampires!! :DDD (with albany)
- society of people who have no sleep schedules ;c;
- .sign?
- reign
- reign but spicy
- reign again
- have i mentioned that reign loves milky vv much and is always there for her?
- tj has joine the pangolin army, we march at dawn
- g o a t s
sign here too !
table i took from lyric, and bird i stole from lucky's neighborhood !! :
┬──┬ (hhHh much high quality table-)
(･Θ･) <-- birby: i call stel "leopold" and he likes to sit next to the table, like this: (･Θ･)┬──┬
(*gAsp* 2 tables?? 2 leopolds?? oHgOSH i hAVE a mAgic tElepOrtiNg birD & tAble ;v;,)
heyyy it's ari here! just popping round to confirm that this person is incredible and therefore must be treated with immense respect and consideration - they're a quality five star being that doesn't deserve to put up with any bu*****t. So don't give it to them, please
*cry* oHmYpiGeoNs thank you <3333 that's incredibly amazingly sploondiferous of you to say -milkie
i am eating bread right now. just thought you should know. - aVerY (aka thatkokichisimp)
*gAsp* t hi s is vEry important information n i'm jealous now <33 /nm /pos -milky :>
-milkie, non-professional abysm lingerer, lost items here, title switcher, tea-bringing moon dragon n hopeful waffle nomad :D
Hello!!! I hope we can be friends! I see you around everywhere ♡♡♡ you seem sooo cute!-Keels(ps my name is ConfuzzledBean!
hello !! just came here to say you are v cool
hewuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu <33 - reign
Crazy Frog is annoying but his music isn't that bad though. hello idk what im talkin about but ur cool -That dog with headphones