User:HerbiMetal

Questioning and exploring my sexual orientation. I thought I was Straight for 26 years and an Ally until recently when I found out about Omnisexual and felt it describes me. Identity crisis bam. My user page serves the purpose of curating wiki pages of interest to my experience.

All along I have been

 * Female
 * Feminine
 * She/Her Pronouns
 * Cisgender

Omnisexual
I got an aha moment when I learnt the term Omnisexual. I've always been attracted to men, I think. I believe I am Heteroflexible and Hemi-Bisexual. I only found out then that Bisexual isn't necessarily equal attraction to men and women but it's being on the Multisexual spectrum. I may be Heteroromantic Bisexual, exploring for sure. I honestly can't tell the difference between how sexual, romantic and aesthetic attraction feel. I find they overlap so much I can't differentiate.

For a few years before this, I considered myself to be straight but Bicurious. Queer is a good umbrella term as I have had trouble identifying as straight the past few years when I found myself being attracted to women too.

I am not exactly sure how I feel towards females, and I tend to be more attracted to men for sexual and romantic relationships. But I am so fascinated and turned on by the female body and find females hot in a different way from males! Having finally embraced my sexuality I am definitely more open to exploring, previously I thought I would never have a relationship with a female. I realize it is also the societal stigma and barriers for same sex relationships that really inhibit me from thinking it could be possible. At the moment, I don't really consider myself Sapphic since I think that overall, I'm more likely to get in a relationship with a man (if I ever have one, that is). I'm definitely Questioning and I don't know if I'll ever be 100% sure.

I consider myself a Femme because I am extremely feminine, even more so than most women I encounter. I love femmes! If I were to ever have a girlfriend, she would probably be a feminine femme like me.

I considered myself Abrosexual previously, but now not so much. I can't put a finger on what exactly my sexuality is, but I don't think it changes much.

Meliusgender
Meliusgender also just hit the jackpot for me! A few Xenogenders really describe how I relate to my femininity. Never occurred to me I could be anything other than female but these are basically a subset before my femininity and I feel 100% female. I might be a Xenogirl but I feel more comfortable thinking of myself as a Meliuswoman.

Age dreaming to a baby and toddler has always been a part of my personality and how I experience being female. I legit can't understand how people can cope with life without age dreaming into their comfy corner. Adulting and growing up is terrifying indeed! I never thought I'd find other people like me till I joined the server, as I am definitely not an adult baby-diaper lover like people on the internet I research on.

In my mind, a woman is a girl is a woman. I am a woman-child. For me, part of being a woman is being a child and baby at the same time.

I experience femininity as

 * Littlegender which falls under Agregender (Bingo!)
 * Cutegender I AM cute, it's a fact, get over it
 * Pinkgender which falls under Colorgender, being female is so pink! Baby pink and magenta are my favorites.
 * I'm Touch-favorable to my blankie, skirts and (long) hair; huge sensual attraction there
 * My blankie is my ultimate comfort and turns me on, but I don't really think I'm Genderblankie. It's just a way of comforting myself and stimming.

Pages of interest
I may identify slightly with some of these pages, or just want to remember the terms.
 * Straight Queer & Straight passing
 * Physical Attraction
 * Sexual Attraction
 * Sensual Attraction
 * Aesthetic Attraction
 * Romantic Attraction
 * LGBT+ & MOGAI
 * Fingender
 * Neopronouns
 * Nounself Pronouns
 * Littlefluid
 * Princessgender
 * Termcollector
 * Adoraphoric
 * Coogender - an umbrella term for genders that are soft, fluffy, cute and loving
 * Mollisgender - soft, light and comfortable
 * Ochinogender - being cozy
 * Dressgender
 * Cuddlegender
 * Childgender
 * Babycoric