User:Lonely Dinosaur

I have no idea, how to make a profile page (note from me from the future: this is why it looks literally nothing like pages of others that I've seen), but I really wanted to do this, so...

About me
Name: here I go as Dracorex, but more as a nickname as a actual name, because nothing seems to feel like something I would really want to be named as.

Gender: I still can't understand, what a gender actually is, but terms polygender, animogender, autigender, agender and non-binary feel like they fit me.

Pronouns: I'm used to she/her, but I think I would be also okay with he/him and they/them as well.

Sexuality: sex repulsed asexual.

Romantic orientation: probably toburomantic (in case you don't wanna waste your time looking it up it means attraction mainly to vampires and oh man, that's so weird), but around other people I would often call myself aromantic.

Plurality: probably plural singlet being part of a system, but I'm still in the phase of denial.

I have autism, ADHD, synesthesia, social anxiety and depression (all self-diagnosed, (tw: parents) because my mom doesn't want to take me to therapist :'] )

My hyperfixations:

- dinosaurs of course

- DID and systemhood in general (this is so strong, that I made main character of book that I'm writing a system without even planning to do so and I think it's kinda funny (btw, if you're a system and you want to share anything about how daily living as a headmate looks like or give me any advice about writing about this topic, I would love to hear from you; there's a very little probability, that I will ever finish it and it will be published, but in case this miracle would happen I want this to be as accurate as posibble, since in my country there's little to no representation of systems in media and I think most people don't even know, that such thing exists; I've already spent hours listening to different systems on youtube, but I would still want to know more details))

- languages in general, especially grammar and how language can change one's perception of the world (because of this I literally started inventing my own language, which I can use in my book (it's in fantasy genre, so thought up languages are common here), and I love that I can do everything with it; I threw away whole concept of gender while desinging it, because in my native language everything has a gender and even verbs and adjectives change depending on noun gender and this is so annoying and stupid (I don't want to offend people who have a gender, I just hate the fact that people who want to go under pronouns other than he, she or it have no physical ability to do that, when they talk in Polish))

- space, especially life cycles of stars and Venus (I don't know why, Venus is cool)

- mostly everything associated with biology (apart from the chemistry part, chemistry scares me)

- types of tetriary attractions

- artifical intelligence and neural networks (I have problems with understanding it though)

- random topics from psychology and working of human brain

If you're also interested in or want to know something about these things feel free to message me. I would love to talk about them with somebody, because my family and friends don't care :')

I can't say that I have any triggers, but please, if you can, try to not talk to me about politics and conspiracy theories. These topics make me really uncomfortable.

I can be on this wiki few times a day or disappear for few weeks or months, this is normal for me. I didn't want to spend here much time, but I'm already wasting hours daily in the internet, so I'm coming to the conclusion that it doesn't matter.

Forgive me for every spelling, grammar and punctuation mistake (especially punctuation, I just can't understand, how commas in English work), I'm stil learning. You can correct me if you want, because otherwise I'll probably make the same mistakes forever.

My headamates
Note: this is all written by me, because I'm scared to let them do it themselves. Not that I don't want them to front or share their information with somebody here, but when they would do so, I would probably learn many new things about them and this freaks me out for some reason. When I'll finally work this out, these descriptions would probably change. Also, I'm not sure, if anything of that is actually true (not me having major trust issues /s).

Irlan ("i" pronounced like "y" in "city"): he's a 19 yo male vampire. I don't know his orientation and I don't wanna ask about it yet. He's an introject from a character from an early stage of the story I'm currently writing and has been around for less than a year. He's co-conscious with me for mostly whole days recently, I don't know, if that makes him co-host? His name comes from the language I'm making and have a meaning similiar to English "sunshine". And he's just that. He is wonderful, caring and much more responsible than me, even though we're both failing at remembering important stuff. He often feels lonely though, and I feel awful for not letting him talk to people out here becouse of my anxiety. I hope I'll be able to go past this soon.

Regis: to my knowledge I talked with him only once and I know nearly nothing about him (except for his pronouns, you always know people's pronouns, when you are using language such as Polish). But he is for sure introject from a character from "the Witcher" series. His source is (also) a male vampire, but I don't remember his age. Okay, he said that he don't know about the character in the book, but he is 428. Jeez, why do he always know, when I'm thinking about him? He seems to be very calm, rational and even more responsible than Irlan.

And they're the only ones as far, that I recognize. I know I've talked to few more of them, but I can't even distinguish their voices. The only answer I got from Irlan for the question: "how many of you are there?" was "near one thousand, but I don't know, if we haven't counted any NPC's" and I honestly don't belive him about that. I know, there are the cases, but... No. Just no. Thousand is too round number to at least feel like a true thing. If there is like 20 of them, it would take me ages to get used to, get to know and accept everyone, and thousand... I don't have enough life time for this.

But I'm afraid I don't have much to say here.

Thank you for reading this far. I hope I managed to make this at least a little funny to read (and that my grammar wasn't hurting your heart that much). Have a wonderful day/night/whatever you want!