User:Lonely Dinosaur

I have no idea, how to make a profile page, but I really wanted to do this, so...

Name: I won't share my real name, because I don't really like it. I mean I'm okay with it in general, but it kinda doesn't fit me. And I feel like there's no name, that would ever fit me, so I don't know. You can call me by my nickname, I'll be okay with that.

Gender: maybe autigender, because I'm sure I have a gender, but at the same time I can't really understand, what gender actually means, and I feel like my autism is the one to blame for it (and this term fits me in some weird way).

Pronouns: I'm used to she/her, but I think I would be also okay with he/him and they/them as well.

Sexuality: sex repulsed asexual.

Romantic orientation: probably toburomantic (in case you don't wanna waste your time loloking it up it means attraction mainly to vampires and oh man, that's so weird), but around other people I would often call myself aromantic.

Plurality: maybe a system, maybe just a singlet/plural singlet with a very realistic imaginary friend.

I have autism, ADHD, synesthesia, social anxiety and depression (all self-diagnosed, (tw: parents) because my mom doesn't want to take me to therapist :'] )

(tw:religion) I'm a Christian, even though I feel like I can't be a Christian, when I'm LGBT, and I can't be LGBT, when I'm a Christian. I know, that people of my religion coused a lot of damage to our community and this makes me sad and I feel really sorry for all of you. People don't even try to understand and forget, that christianity is about loving each other, not about being right. And telling somebody that they are a sinner is not love. I belive that all of you are valid and I don't agree, that homosexual or any other kind of relationships are a sin, since i see no reason for them being it.

My hyperfixations:

- dinosaurs of course

- DID and systemhood in general (this is so strong, that I made main character of book that I'm writing a system without even planning to do so and I think it's kinda funny (btw, if you're a system and you want to share anything about how daily living as a headmate looks like or give me any advice about writing about this topic, I would love to hear from you; there's a very little probability, that I will ever finish it and it will be published, but in case this miracle would happen I want this to be as accurate as posibble, since in my country there's little to no representation of systems in media and I think most people don't even know, that such thing exists; I've already spent hours listening to different systems on youtube, but I would still want to know more details))

- languages in general, especially how language can change one's perception of the world (because of this I literally started inventing my own language, which I can use in my book (it's in fantasy genre, so thought up languages are common here), and I love that I can do everything with it; I threw away whole concept of gender while desinging it, because in my native language everything has a gender and even verbs and adjectives change depending on noun gender and this is so annoying and stupid (I don't want to offend people who have a gender, I just hate the fact that people who want to go under pronouns other than he, she or it have no physical ability to do that, when they talk in Polish))

- space, especially life cycles of stars and Venus (I don't know why, Venus is cool)

- mostly everything associated with biology (apart from the chemistry part, chemistry scares me)

- types of tetriary attractions

- artifical intelligence and neural networks (I have problems with understanding it though)

- random topics from psychology and working of human brain

If you're also interested in or want to know something about these things feel free to message me. I would love to talk about them with somebody, because my family and friends don't care :')

I can't say that I have any triggers, but please, if you can, try to not talk to me about politics and conspiracy theories. These topics make me really uncomfortable.

I can be on this wiki few times a day or disappear for few weeks or months, this is normal for me. I didn't want to spend here much time, but I'm already wasting hours daily in the internet, so I'm coming to the conclusion that it doesn't matter.

Forgive me for every spelling, grammar and punctuation mistake (especially punctuation, I just can't understand, how commas in English work), I'm stil learning. You can correct me if you want, because otherwise I'll probably make the same mistakes forever.