User blog:RainTheGenderfluid/I Need Help With My Gender

I'm genderfluid, and I'm having trouble identifying the gender I am at the moment. It feels like there is a spot in my mind where my gender is located (the gender changes, not it's location). Right now, when I try and think about what my gender is, it's like I'm pushing up against this giant black blob of something where my gender is. It's kinda gummy-like. The gender is there (so not agender), but it's neutral. I feel no connection to maleness, femaleness, manhood, or womanhood. There is a slight connection to masculinity, though. It's small, but it's there. There is no connection to femininity, androgyny, or neutrality (even though the gender is neutral). Does anyone know what this could be?