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I'm writing this here because I have no actual sources, so seeing as I'm speaking entirely from my own experience it feels wrong to basically just copy-paste much of my identity here in a third person perspective; I'd want at minimum 1 other person who feels similar. If I had to guess, going by the description and my own experiences of being 'removed from the concept of gender', this is arguably a neurological- perhaps neurodivergent- thing in addition to an identity. In my case, I am very detached from gender- for personal 'use' I care about as much about the gender of my body as I do whether I'm tall or short- and, personally, have had to learn from others why anyone else would feel different. This doesn't neccesarily mean gender stuff isn't a bother- I'll still be annoyed by bodily functions etc, and might even have some dysphoria (unsure on that atm). It also doesn't mean asexual/aromantic- I still have attractions to certain genders etc. But with me I sort of think of it as an aspect of the body a 'person' is currently inhabiting. Not in a spiritual sense though- I think of it as neurological. But it does mean that I not only don't have a gender to my perception, but I can't even fully understand what it is. I'm 'removed from the concept'. This results in a unique thing I've only ever seen me do- when talking about my "gender" identity I never use the word gender, just by instinct. I say 'identity' 'form' 'body', but not gender- For the same reason I wouldn't say for ex 'eye color identity' or 'hair length identity'- it's just as meaningless to me, in a sense. More impactful overall, but still just an aspect. Compounding this I also don't have a preffered form- all of those descriptors thus are also sorta meaningless because given the chance I'd be changing them at a whim on a second-by second basis. Idk if any of this will speak to the identity, or speaks to something else more accurately (I don't mind much either way), but thought it might help someone at least 💗