User:.noteret

Hello, Eret speaking. Many people know me as the LGBTA wiki bureaucrat, but stuff has happened on the wiki that I am not okay with. I felt the need to make a statement about it so everyone could have some clarity on the situation, and not bombard my socials with questions.

I am fucking done with the wiki and anything to do with it.

Why? For one, grooming happens constantly, and there's nothing anyone can do about it. The best thing to do would be to fucking delete the wiki. Ezgender and other wikis can cover the content on here better than us. There's an underground group dedicated to grooming members. I can't do anything, no one can, because we don't know how they're communicating or where. None of the victims reported it to us, because the wikis users have been condition to believe that behaviors that groomers exhibit are normal and acceptable.

The wiki is shit to my mental health, and at this rate, it's a trigger to me. I'm power hungry- I feel the need to have power over people due to trauma. This wiki fueled that need for power, the need to have superiority, the need to know that people are below me, and that I'm above them. The desire and need to feel like a leader. To know that I could make someone no longer have access to the wiki, to delete pages I deem as unnecessary. That made it so hard to resign, and I got stuck in a loop. Wanting to resign, not wanting to lose that power or superiority, and by having power and superiority, feeding into my need for it.

I also felt as if I had to be on the wiki all the time. If I didn't, I'd lose friends. The only ones I had. Which made my grades drop to the point where I could have gotten sent to a boarding school. I lost sight of what was really important for this wiki.

I had lost touch with anyone who could tell me that the wiki was not good for me. I lost it. The people that tried to let me know that it's not a good place, I screamed at and cut ties with. I had an obsession with the wiki.

I have gotten suspended from school because of my excessive usage of the wiki. I used the wiki so much in class. I got so many demerits and warnings to the point where they had to suspend me from the school because I couldn't stay off. Did that stop me? Of course not. I was obsessed. Power hungry. I needed the wiki.

I don't want anything to do with the wiki anymore. Do not contact me about the wiki.

- Eret.